I have had a lot on my mind lately. Thoughts of love, purpose, motivation, kids, schedules, goals, and the list goes on. I can easily get overwhelmed with my own thoughts. I wish I had more than 24 hours in a day. I know you have heard that one before. I am a night owl and a morning person because my mind will not shut off most days. I have an overflowing heart with the aching desire to change the world.
I have insecurities. I have a fear of speaking. I have many fears….that hold me back and shouldn’t. God is working on that.
I have to be careful though. Careful to not lose focus. Lose focus on God. God’s plans for me and his purpose. Not mine. I used to stress about the days when I didn’t complete everything. When I didn’t get the dishes done or the laundry folded. Even a day like today where my mind feels like it will explode with creative plans or things I want to share with you.
God has taught me for years now and is still teaching me what is most important. He is. His word and his desires for me. It is him in me that makes the person he desires and craves for me to be. To love thy neighbor. To help a friend in need. Show compassion.
To be the hands and feet of Jesus.
We need a God focused mind with a God intended heart. My children need a God intended Mom to love them unconditionally. Treat every moment as a teachable moment showing them God’s ways through us. Be the hands and feet of Jesus to our children. To our husbands. To our friends. Strangers. To our selves.
We I get easily consumed by our my own thoughts of wanting to change ourselves myself, perfect my flaws, change the world. We get anxious. I get anxious. I have a big heart and sometimes it does get in the way. In the way of God’s plans.
God knows my anxious heart. My impatient heart. I am learning each day though that he know my anxious heart and where I am impatient. He reminds me to pause. Praise him. Thank him. Love him. Good or Bad. even heartbroken. He has forgiven me. loved me when nobody else seemed to. encouraged me. healed me.
Am I letting God take care of me? Am I letting God change me? Am I loving my children, my husband, my friends the way God loves me?
I am a passionate girl. My heart aches each day for what others are going through. I carry it with me. I carry a lot even tonight. This consumes a lot of my thoughts. I want to to physically take their pain from them and feel it for them. Sometimes this gets in the way. The way I think. The way I feel. I then pray. God please ease their pain just a little. Whatever your beautiful plan is show them just a ray of hope. Just like you did for me.
Even in my anxious thoughts I know now that God will provide. He will take care of heart that is about to burst. He will take care of my insecurities. My heartache. My everything.
What do I have to lose to give it all to God?
Give it all to God. Abandon my former ways. Let him live in me. Worship God through your transformation.
My heart overflows and I may not be able to change the world but I may be able to change the world for one person.
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