I confess I feel this way sometimes. I struggle with teaching my kids right from wrong, manners, or am I just plain screwing it all up. I pray daily that God will orchestrate my parenting through his ways not mine and to show me how to love them, instruct them, and guide them through Christ instead of this world. I may struggle but God is my rock and he has caught me every time I have stumbled. I know my kids may fail or stumble but our God is bigger and I know God will teach me how to be the best mother they need, to bring them closer to him, through my accomplishments and mistakes, and through this awesome journey of motherhood.
We live in such a world of chaos that motherhood can often feel just as chaotic in a messy way in our own little worlds. I know mine does. But as I trust God more in my walk as a mom to these little souls and trust hin him more and more each day, I find it to be less chaotic. Still imperfect but less messy. When I seek our Lord and pray for his guidance and direction on decisions for our family it literally feels like the weight is off my shoulders.
Does this mean my children will not make mistakes? That they will not make choices that I will not be pleased with? Absolutely not. They will stumble and fail and God and myself will be there to love them and help them up. We are imperfect humans needing lots of grace and lots of love. It won’t be always be an easy ride but it will be pretty amazing and I know God is with me and my children every step of the way.