It has been raining for like the millionth day but the rain has forced us to stay home more than usual and allow us to really focus on some things around the house. So even though I miss the sunshine I am thankful for the rain too. We started a whole new adventure since the last time I really blogged on this space. When I first started this blog years ago it was such a time of healing for me and flourished into a space of writing about my faith, love, loss, and motherhood. I haven’t been able to focus so much on this little space for quite some time but there are seasons of stillness and seasons of attention that needs to be fully applied to more areas than others. So I poured myself where God needed me the most. My family and my children. We were faced with challenges that I honestly didn’t know if we could overcome. So I prayed a lot. I prayed hard. I prayed for wisdom and guidance. I had prayer warriors surrounding me. I could not do this alone. My husband and I prayed even when we didn’t quite see everything with the same emotions or perspective. Neither of us were right or wrong, we were just in different atmospheres that didn’t allow our perspective to be seen with the same knowledge and wisdom. That is where we had to fully trust God for his guidance, wisdom, love, and encouragement to make a decision for what was best for our family.
Sometimes God calls you to big and new adventures that only he can carefully orchestrate. It is by our faith and obedience that we carry out the calling he has placed before us. A journey traveled not perfectly by us but willingly to meet him where he has marked our destination oh so perfectly with his lead. God calls us for many seasons in life to transform us into what he desires for us to glorify his kingdom not ours. Our season has changed and we are excited to start a new adventure in homeschooling. It wasn’t an easy and quick decision but it was none the less prayed for and placed in our hearts by God for our family. We have learned many things these last few years and I only hope to live out God’s amazing faithful plan for my children. I am so thankful for this journey that God has given us and am beyond excited to take this path that God has marked for us.
That was in January and now that we are two months deep into our homeschooling adventure I am so thankful that God orchestrated every, path, turn, challenge, joy, accomplishment, sacrifice, prayer, and support through out this journey. It has definitely been a journey. A journey that carried a lot of pain and shattered emotions for our children. It was all worth it to be where we are at today. Nothing short of easy but life-giving for our family.
Before God placed it on our hearts to homeschool I would say to myself I could never homeschool! I didn’t think I was nearly equipped or qualified to teach these two kids. I even worked in the school district teaching elementary technology and I loved it so I had no desire to homeschool. When we first started to seeing problems and noticing public school wasn’t going to be best for our kids I kind of was hoping that they would be comfortable and excel in public school because I didn’t think I could actually homeschool. The stress and the emotional roller coaster that our children were facing especially for our daughter was brutal and I hate that she endured any of that so early in life. However, I am thankful for the emotional upheaval that was endured because it allowed us to grow from it and to see what we were really facing with our children. This ultimately led us to our path of homeschooling.
So how does homeschooling look for us? We are still brand new so honestly it looks different each week. We are doing lots of unschooling especially for me. We are focusing on mastering content and not moving so quickly from one subject to the next. We are focused on building and growing relationships with each other and friends. We have slowed down tremendously with our schedules and spending lots of time on specific interests.
I know that homeschooling is not for every child and I am not that mama that thinks that everyone should do it. I know that public school is life-giving and life saving for some children. I am a product of public school and even with all the challenges I faced and the turmoil I endured, public school saved my life. Homeschooling has saved our children though and we are seeing a spark in them we hadn’t seen before. We are learning together and we are providing opportunities for them individually that they need to grow and be successful. We are following God’s lead and living our life exactly how he desires our family to live. I hope that I will be able to share more of our homeschool journey on this little space of mine.