Don’t you love the innocence of a child’s heart? The questions they ask. The answers they give. I love these years with my children who are now five and fours years old. They have such an innocence about them I crave each day. An innocence that I long for in myself. Oh to be a child again.
As my children are getting older, God not only reminds me of their innocence, but also of their intelligence. How in tune they really are with our world, our conversations, and our actions. How we must be more intentional to impress God’s truth and love on their hearts.
I found this old picture of myself when I was a little girl with my grandparents in front of the Christmas tree. Another photo when I was a little girl hanging my dolls clothes on the clothes line in the backyard tied to a chair. Instantly, I felt that feeling of innocence cover my thoughts when I was so safe in my grandparents home just carefree and having fun.
My daughter looks at my picture and says, “Mom, you’re so cute and you have long hair like me”. She asks their names and I reply Leona and Jerry. Then my son chimes in giggling,”like Tom and Jerry”. The innocent laughter of being proud of his own joke. I say yes like Tom and Jerry encouraging the laughter.
Then that innocence turns to serious business. I already knew it was coming. My son always ask the serious questions especially after making a joke.
“Mom, did they die?” I respond yes. He then asks are they in Heaven with Jesus. Again, I respond Yes. He then asks, “Will we meet them when we go to Heaven?” Of course I tell him. I start to swallow because I already know what his next question is. It is always the same one. “Is my big sister still in Heaven waiting for us?” Yes sweetie she is and we will all be together one day with Jesus. He smiles and then tells me how he can’t wait to play with her because he misses her. My heart smiles. A little more healing comes through.
Then he catches me off guard with a new question. “Mama, did Payton die when she was a baby?” I answer a simple yes. Next question, “Why do babies die?” Oh my heart sunk to my stomach. This innocent little child questioning this world, heaven, death, and all I could think was this is it he is questioning God’s love and my love.
I tell him the best way I could that we live in a fallen world. Just as we walk on this Earth, Jesus has too, but he died on the cross to save us from our sins so we may spend eternal life with him in Heaven. People die, my grandparents died, and yes babies die, but God’s love doesn’t. We will then be in his Kingdom in Heaven where no more suffering, death, or pain will be.
Just you and God’s love. Amazing and Unfailing love.
“Be strong and of good courage; be not afraid…for the Lord thy God is with thee.”Joshua 1:9
“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” John 3:16
Just for kickers…I totally never make this face.