Do you struggle with self-worth? Do you ever feel ashamed of your past? I have and sometimes it tries to creep it’s way back to the surface. I have made mistakes in the past that I am not proud of. I have imperfections that I struggle with daily.
It took me several years to face my self-worth.. Years to deal with the heartache. It was about a year and a half ago I was struggling with fears, feeling ashamed, heartache, mistakes, and oh so much more that depleted my self-worth. I felt hopeless and unworthy. I sobbed with my face in my hands saying to God please hep me. All of the broken parts I thought was mended has surfaced and shatter again.
It was that night I realized what the problem was. I did not have self-worth. I criticized myself. Talked myself out of succeeding. I reminded myself of all my mistakes that I was already forgiven for but that feeling of guilt was hiding in the corners of my heart waiting for that moment to strike again. I grew up feeling unworthy and I planted that back in my mind somehow.
While my tears were streaming and face buried in my hands God reminded what he did for me and you. He paid the price for us with his life. I was stunned. It was like the very first time I heard that and I soaked it in. How dare I feel so bad about myself and sit here feeling worthless when Jesus saved me, an undeserving sinner, but he loved me enough.
One word pierced my heart. Redeemed. We all know the word. I wanted to know more.
Redeemed is defined as:
“to buy back
to free from captivity by payment of ransom
to release from blame or debt
to free from distresses or harms
to free from the consequences of sin
to change for the better.”
Did you read that? Isn’t that amazing? We are redeemed by the blood of Jesus. He loves us so much that he released us to be free. God uses our imperfections for his glory. We are freed to leave the old and be a new person in Christ. We are redeemed.
I am REDEEMED.
If you are feeling down or worthless remember God loves you and he isn’t done with you yet. Have hope and faith in God and if you have to read the definition of Redeemed and insert Jesus.
Jesus bought me back. Jesus freed me from captivity by payment of ransom( his blood). Jesus frees us from distress or harm. Jesus frees me from the consequences of sin. Jesus changes me for the better. Jesus redeems us.
One of my favorite songs is “Redeemed” by Big Daddy Weave. Lately when I get in the car no matter what time of day I hear this song playing and God reminding of that night long ago. He doesn’t want me to ever forget again. My favorite part of the song is:
“Stop fighting a fight that’s already been won”