My son started kindergarten this year and I was absolutely terrified to send my baby boy off to school. Would he be treated kind? Would he like his teacher? Would he get lost in the hallways? Who would help him when he was nervous? Can we say mommy was just a little anxious and over protective?
He was super excited to start kindergarten and every day we would pass the school he would say there’s my school mom! I knew he was ready but I wasn’t. So I prayed. It was really all I could do after I was in denial all summer. But God calmed my anxious heart and we had a great first day. He went in like he had been there all year. He loved his teacher. He loved his class. I thought whew this was easier than I thought.
He shares everything with me about friends, schools, conversations, anything he can remember. I am very thankful that he is open with me. I am careful with my reactions especially when I am shocked but not surprised. I don’t ever want him to feel he can’t come to me. This has though caused uneasiness for me as a parent dropping him off to school. I will not go into detail or share the things we experienced for respect for my son and others. I will say though it was a hard first two months. I was sick to my stomach some days questioning myself as a parent to send him to school. I started to look into homeschooling or how can we possibly afford private school but I knew that wasn’t an option.
We visited with the school and teacher. We carefully considered our options and we were seriously thinking about transferring him to another school. Please understand that during this whole time our son was happy with school. He was excited to go everyday and be with his class and teacher. We had another meeting scheduled with the principal at the school and as soon as my husband walked up to the school we stopped and looked at each other and just knew we couldn’t transfer him. We still met with the priciple and voiced our concerns as parents leaving with our options to carefully pray over.
God said to me right then. Be still and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10 He has told me that before. Let me work on this he said. I have blessed you with a child to teach, instruct in the Lord, and care for. I have given you a child who is mine, a child of God. Let me do what is best for him and work through you and him in the situation. God had left me questioning myself was I doing this for myself or what is best for my child. Don’t get me wrong I will protect my son but I couldn’t get in the way of God’s plan.
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I listened to God. He humbled my spirit as a mother and strengthened my trust for him caring for
my his children he has blessed me with. He has plans for our son. He is kind, passionate, follows rules, and is respectful at school. He loves God and displays love to everyone. God’s plan is far more important than mine. Since we submitted to God and trusted him to care for our son he has blessed us with peace in our decision to leave him in his class and he is so happy. Thank you God for your peace and understanding and growing us as parents in this fallen world. He is having an awesome Kindergarten year.
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