October is Pregnancy, Stillbirth, & Infant Loss Awareness month. This is our sweet angel baby, Payton. She died during childbirth and it completely shattered our hearts. Leaving the hospital to plan a funeral and coming to a home with empty arms to a nursery filled with love was devastating. 11 years later I still remember every moment, emotion, scent of hair, thoughts, and the love that surrounded us. Family, friends, nurses, even strangers wrapped us in prayer and love during our loss and grief. I poured my self into raising awareness and helping other moms the … [Read more...]

Mother’s day is different for all mothers but also very real. This Mother’s Day, remember all the different mothers celebrating and grieving.  If I am honest, sometimes I miss the innocence of Mother’s day and what it could be before my sweet baby died but I am also so very thankful to be her mama. Mother’s day can be an incredibly hard time especially for those that are mourning. Being a stillbirth mama I completely get it. Eleven years later I still have moments where I think of her name and it just takes my breath away. I have mourned many Mother’s days but I have … [Read more...]