I haven’t talked about loss in while but it seems it is all around me right now. I think about my daughter daily but lately she has been heavy on my heart and mind. I am in a different place seven years later but it still hurts and I can’t help the emotions some day. Especially when someone shares with me a new loss I am just heartbroken for them. I know what they are going through.
Although I can celebrate her life with out the heaviness of sadness and heartache I am still sensitive to those around me who experience a loss. My heart aches for you. I think you of and your heartache. Although our stories are different we all can relate to the tremendous feeling of an aching heart that loses a child.
My different place is now filled with joy. I am thankful for my loss because I would not be where I am today without experiencing my loss. Although I wish I could have my daughter here with me and I wouldn’t want that on anyone, reality is, it did happen. So after seven years I embrace the loss and press on the courage to be set free of my grief. Free to love my children without feeling guilty. Free to celebrate my daughter’s heavenly birthday. Free to fully enjoy life. Free to be joyful after grief. Free to fly.
I am only able to do this by God’s grace and comfort. I stand here sharing my faith in God. A faith that stumbles and hits road blocks but never ends. A faith that gives me the freedom to let God carry my grief to the next level. A faith that endures heartache and loss along with joy and laughter.
A faith that can bring me back to that place in a moment when God needs me to listen to the mom who has her loss fresh in her world. A faith that God will give me the strength and courage to comfort the mom who needs a shoulder to cry on because we know each other’s pain.
When those raw emotions of grief come crashing in like waves, Jesus will carry me through the storm. When the sun shines so bright and the joy sneaks in, I will embrace it because I deserve it.
My heart is aching for you sweet mamas who have suffered a loss. Wherever you are in your grief, please know it is not a wrong place. Everyone deals with grief and experiences grief differently. There is no right or wrong.
You are a beautiful mother and you are not alone.
Love,
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