Good is Good. God is Awesome. God is Amazing. So many ways to say what our God is. He is a loving God. He is a rescuing kind of God {I have been rescued many times}. He is a worthy God. He is a passionate God. He is a Jealous God. He is a Trusting God. My list could go on. He has been there for me all these ways and more. Today though he is a Healing God.
I love to blog to share my passion for Jesus and how he has transformed my life to where he needs me to be. I love to blog about my family and the loss we experienced. I love to blog about the funny and awkward things I truly encounter quite often. I love to blog about the simple things in life. Although I wish I could blog more on some of the personal things in my life I don’t for the respect of my husband, my family, and other reasons. I would never want to hurt anyone with what I write just for me. I want to write what God leads me to sometimes really hard stuff about me, sometimes funny, and sometimes boring and totally pointless for some but I enjoy it.
Back to the healing. I have had a long year of doctors and illness that has taken a toll on my marriage, myself, my family, and just plain exhausting. Through it all I never gave up or settled with incorrect diagnosis, ups and downs of medications that I didn’t want to take but was desperate, and not to mention exhaustion and pain. I am thankful I originally didn’t have a stroke they treated me for. I am thankful that my migraine disorder that mimics a stroke is under control and I no longer have to take a daily medication for migraines. I am thankful they found my ruptured disc in my neck that was triggering the migraines because I insisted on testing and it took five doctors later to not think I was crazy.
The past two months have been a roller coaster again though with chronic stomach pain, sharp stabbing pains in my left side, and many more issues I don’t feel necessary to share but very concerning. My doctor felt like I had endometriosis which explained a lot but was also alarming considering treatments were usually with hormone therapy depending on the severity of the endometriosis. However, I can’t take hormone treatments due to I have a thrombophilia, which played a huge part in our pregnancies with our children, it is not talked about enough but increased your risks with clots and pregnancy loss depending on the factors you have. So in my case if the endometriosis was severe we would have to consider a hysterectomy but knowing I can’t take hormones we would be choosing a partial.
Here is where God is all of the things I mentioned above…..I was scared of what route we would have to take to not increase my risks for blood clots but I placed it in God’s hands and I knew he had plans for me and I was hopeful that no matter the outcome and he would take care of the way he needed not the way I wanted.
God is Good. I had laparoscopic surgery and praise God no endometriosis was found! Seriously none. I am so thankful although if you have it or have had it I am praying for you. My doctor did find adhesions of scar tissue that had grown around my organs and attached to my abdomen wall also attaching to my fallopian tube causing it to adhere to another organ. It was fixable. God is a healer. Everything I mentioned above is truly just a glimpse of what my last year has been like and I am not here to dwell on the bad parts or sound negative. I am here to share with you that our God is good!
He may not heal you in the ways you want but it will be in the ways he needs for his glory. I wish I didn’t have to have medicine on hand for a migraine that cause debilitating symptoms but it reminds me of other who have it worse. I would have rather delivered my two babies with out c-sections and risks but God showed me how life is fragile and I was blessed to deliver my stillborn daughter to soak in that six hours I was able to hold her.
If you are going through trials rather health or relationships anything that is a thorn in your side. Have faith and hope God is right there with you. He is using for his glory. He loves you and he is even more than I mentioned above.
Thank you to all my family and friends who have prayed for me during all these times. I love you all. Thank you God for always being a God that can carry me each day.
Love,
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