Yesterday was or daughter, Payton’s, 10th Heavenly Birthday. We went out as a family and just spent the day together and I wasn’t able to post so I wanted to share a picture that I treasure and a little instagram and facebook post I shared. Thank you to all of our family and friends for the outpouring of love.
You have changed me entirely from that moment I held you ten years ago. That moment when life and death met in instant and my heart felt like it was completely shattered never to be mended. As the years went by and life continued with out you I faced my grief and pain head on with the bittersweet intertwined feelings of sorrow and gladness of living. Missing you had stripped my soul bare but strengthened my heart and filled it with compassion and joy. Through all the waves of… grief and sorrow that seemed like it would never end unexpectedly arises courage and bravery I never knew I had. All because of you. I have experienced the deepest joy through my deepest grief. Today i do not live in pain but in complete joy and hope in the moment I will hold you again in Heaven. To be your mama and have a heart that longs for you I would choose it again. No matter the time and distance I’ll find my way back to you. We love and miss you today sweet girl and I know you are waiting for me.
Payton Riley Brown 3-16-06