On my heart tonight

This past weekend after hearing the tragic news I had so many emotions I couldn’t contain myself at times. I just cried reading all the stores online, seeing all the pictures of the sweet innocent children who were taken, and watching the President speak on behalf of Sandy Hook just brought even more tears.

Tears of sadness and hurt for the parents who are now planning their children’s funerals. Heartache for the families who have bedrooms that their child once played and slept in will now be empty and quiet. Nothing left in their rooms but their sweet smells and the mess from toys that were last played with. Pure heartache.

I hugged my children tighter. I thanked God for them so much all the while I felt selfish for doing so. I also cried and longed for my sweet baby girl who is with God. I remembered her smell and the time I got to hold her in the hospital. I closed my eyes for a second and it felt as if I was there in that room again. I opened my eyes and felt guilty for even thinking of my child who was not taken in a way these children were. I was overcome with peace from God that it was ok to grieve this weekend too. He was with me. Nothing compares to the loss of a child.

I was driving in the car with my four-year old daughter and while it was quiet in the car and I was praying for those parents to feel comforted by God she says to me, “mom, I sure miss baby Payton.” I said I do too sweety, and we all love her but God is taking good care of her for us. She then said, “I am sending her a heart and made the little heart symbol with her hands and raised them to the sky~heaven.” I just teared up. She has never met her sister since she was born after but she knows her.

When you lose a child, you lose a piece of your heart. You lose yourself. Please pray for them. Pray they find healing and comfort in our Sovereign God. He is with us. Grieve your child and find hope in God’s Kingdom.

Please remember and pray for the lives below tonight and every day.

 

On Tuesday, December 18th, there will be a blogger day of silence. We will post the button and that’s it. Please try to not post anything else that day if possible.
We are also raising money that will go to an organization in the memory of this tragedy. The organization is called The Newtown Family Youth and Family Services. Here is the official description of the support service we are donating to:
“Newtown Youth and Family Services, Inc. is a licensed, non-profit, mental health clinic and youth services bureau dedicated to helping children and families achieve their highest potential. NYFS provides programs, services, activities, counseling, support groups and education throughout the Greater Newtown area.
ANY DONATIONS MADE TO NEWTOWN YOUTH AND FAMILY SERVICES WILL BE DONATED DIRECTLY TO THOSE EFFECTED BY THE SANDY HOOK ELEMENTARY SCHOOL SHOOTING.”
Please visit THIS PAGE to make your donation.We can’t imagine how they must be feeling, especially this close to the holidays. We would love for you to spread the word on your own blog, Facebook, Twitter, etc. Let’s make a difference and use blogging in a positive way. Thank you in advance for participating.
Love, The Blog World
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