When you feel like you were kicked in the gut

You guys Life is Messy. I fell to my feet this weekend begging God to come rescue me. If I am real honest I have been begging for weeks maybe even months. God please rescue me from the dark pit I have fallen in. I was being selfish. I wanted God to rescue me quickly so I didn’t have to do the work. I didn’t feel like I had done anything wrong except I buried myself in my own world. I was quick to push God out when he wanted me to take a different path. I was too scared or felt I knew best. I was quick to seek my friends first before God. I was quick to convince myself that my daughter’s separation and crowd anxiety was something I could handle on my own. I was quick to feel sorry for myself because my relationships with my family were struggling. I was quick to make excuses for my lack of patience and anger with my family because I have been in pain for so long. The list goes on.

With my broken heart this weekend I sat on my back patio after I got my sweet babies to bed. It was a bad day all together and things happened I wish I could take back. I sat there and cried my eyes out like I have never cried before. I prayed and begged Jesus to rescue me. All the time I am thinking of my own problems and mess I have got myself in Jesus reminds me I am not alone. There are so many broken hearts in this world. I just kept feeling like I was kicked in the gut and I needed to catch my breath. So after a while I did. I found this verse and I love the message version.

Is anyone crying for help? God is listening ready to rescue you. If your heart is broken, you’ll find GOD right there. If you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. {Psalm 24:17-18 the message.

God is sooo Good. He will help me catch my breath when I feel kicked in the gut. He will lavishly give grace.

After I calmed down and prayed for God to help me and show me what I should do. I kept thinking about all his Grace he pours into us. Into me. I needed to give those around me grace and myself. I feel like we don’t give each other or ourselves enough grace. Sometimes are lives are a big mess and we need to be rescued. Sometimes bad things happen in this fallen world that we just don’t understand or can even begin to comprehend the circumstances. Sometimes I think we are doing the best we can.

That day was a tough day and I know we all have lots of those. With our children, our spouses, or friends, co-workers, and more. Our situations aren’t always the best and sometimes it feels like there is no hope. Let’s give grace to others and ourselves. Let’s look for the best in others even during the messy moments.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 in The Message says…

Lover never gives up. Love cares more for others than self. Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have. Love doesn’t strut, Doesn’t have a swelled head, Doesn’t force itself on others, isn’t always “me first”, Doesn’t fly off the handle, Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others, Doesn’t revel when others grovel,Takes pleasure in following the truth, Puts up with anything, Trusts God always, Always looks for the best, Never looks back, But keeps going to the end.

I don’t know about you but I could insert my name at the very top of the verses to say Hey Angie remember this and tape it to my mirror which really isn’t a bad idea. If your heartbroken today and in a mess I hope that you find hope and comfort in these verses like I did. God didn’t rescue my mess from me but he rescued me from my mess by pouring his love and grace in the deepest part of my soul so I can remind myself:

God’s plans for your life far exceed the circumstances of your day.

I have MADE you

I will CARRY you;

I will SUSTAIN you

and I will RESCUE you.

Isaiah 46:4